Monday, May 10, 2004
currently listening to - Goodbye to You - Michelle Branch
currently eating/drinking - cough drop
currently wearing - white long sleeve shirt, scooby doo boxers = )
current mood - annoyed
currently thinking - .....
current quote/lyric - "you know i`d do that for you"
when you are with me
im free - im careless
i believe
We made promises we couldn't keep
And every night we couldn't sleep
I didn't know why, but didn't ask questions
Because it was the first time in my life
Where I did something right
I set myself up for the
Greatest fall of all time
-Matchbox Romance-
think of all the fun you had.
the finest lines divide a night well spent,
from a waste of time.
you`ve gotten so good....
at setting bad examples. -Taking Back Sunday-
sometimes before life can get better
it has to get worse <3
Real girls aren't perfect,
and perfect girls aren't real.-Courtney Love-
let`s start out by starting over.
what did I expect? you`re no good at lying
and i`m no good at comebacks;
you`re so untouchable.
i`m oh so terrible at this....
i`m terrible at this..you know
___xx;*Matchbook Romance
its been a bad day another bad day
and all i want to do is look at you
and know i'm okay
I'm waiting to give you whatever the world may bring.
I'd give you my life cause I don't own anything.
It seemed like the bottom was all that I had
until now
I'd give you my life...
if you'd give me yours somehow...
If I'm not in love with you,
what is this I'm going through, tonight.
and if my heart is lying then what should I believe in.
why do I go crazy every time I think about you baby.
why else do I want you like I do..
if i'm not in love with you -Faith Hill-
* there are two things in life
that should never be broken.
hearts <3 and promises. *
Please don't forget my name
And take me with you when you leave
"its better to have lost love
then put on a smile and pretend"
-the starting line-
Every friend we ever had in common
I will sever the tie with you
You can thank your lucky stars
That everything i wish for will never come true
Monday, April 19, 2004
currently listening to - Heather on the phone
currently eating/drinking - nothing
currently wearing - jeans, yellow shirt
current mood - tired
currently thinking - nothing lol
current quote/lyric - im proclaiming, "all hail the heartbreaker"
When they ask me
what I liked best,
I'll tell them it was you______x City Of Angels
Your the brightest star I've ever seen
Everytime I see your face
I'm reminded of what it means
to be alive_______x Beautiful Mistake
Well you think you know it all
You think that you deserve the best
Well I've got news for you
Your bullshit lines can't pass this test________x Allister
We made promises we couldn't keep
And every night we couldn't sleep
I didn't know why, but didn't ask questions
Because it was the first time in my life
Where I did something right
I set myself up for the
Greatest fall of all time_________x Matchbox Romance
Thought I'd been In love before
But in my heart, I wanted more
Seems like all I really was doing
Was waiting for you________x The Beatles
the old dreams ..
were good dreams,
they didnt work out.
but im glad i had them________x The Bridges Of Madison
Let's get emotional girls to all wear mood rings
So we'll be tipped off to when they're ticked off
Cause we'll know just what they're thinking
She's so pretty but she but doesn't always act that way
Her mood's out swinging on the swing set almost every day
She said to me that she's so happy it's depressing
And all i said was "someone get that girl a mood ring_____x Reliant K
It's so hard to see
When your eyes are rolling
in the back of your head
It's even harder to speak
When everything you say
just comes out wrong______x Atreyu
I'm filling up inside like I need to open wide
and pour my heart out to you
but I'll just get denied and all I wanted
was someone to hear what I'm going through______x Hoobastank
I said "that boy's handsome"
And a little bit of me wanted to be
beautiful.
he's the only one
that will be
constantly everything you need.
Every fault, every flaw
Your pictures still on my wall
There's not a thing about you
That I would change______x Fenix Tx
but they say if you dream a thing
more than once. it's sure to come true.
and i`ve seen him so many times _______ x Sleeping Beauty
And if I could move I'm sure it would
only be to crawl back to you
I must have dragged my guts a block
They were gone by the time we talked
I want to hate you half
as much as I hate myself________x Fall Out Boy
And althought the moon is falling down on us
Don't expect this day to end
Do you see that star, well I'll meet you there
When you read this, you'll be well on your way
Please write soon so I know that
You've gotten home safe and please
Don't forget me_________x Anatomy Of A Ghost
what makes us burn every bridge we cross?
or walk aimlessly into oncoming traffic?
third times a charm.. but would we even get that far?
Thought I owed it to everyone. .
but I really owe it to myself________x Matchbox Romance
Sunday, April 11, 2004
currently playing - back that ass up - JUVENiLE
currently eating/drinking - snapple
currently wearing - Cal rememberance shirt, sweats
current mood - happy(wow isnt that a surprise)
currently thinking - fuccin cold out here
current quote/lyric - words like violence break the silence
Close your eyes, you're beautiful when you're sleeping
Tonight may all your dreams come true.
It's so nice to hold you while you're sleeping
When I'm sleeping next to you
i want you to
feel the same as i do
all i know....
is you're cute when you scream
i cant stop thinkin about you
i cant stop thinkin about how
my hearts empty without you
my dreams will never come
true without you...x____Mxpx
I just get a little anxious sometimes
You'll be gone and I'll be left behind.
I just get a little nervous sometimes
It'll be my cue & I'll forget my lines.
We keep repeating mistakes for souvenirs.
We've been in between the days for years.
I know that when I see you I'm going to die.
I know I'm going to want you & you know why.
It's going to kill me to see you with the next girl.
I'm the most gorgeously jealous kind of ex-girl._____x No Dout
you're the beauty that is deeper than than eyes
can merely see, the closest thing to perfect but
the farthest thing from me
I wanna stay 18 forever,
so we can stay like this forever
And we'll never miss a party
Cause we keep them going constantly
And we'll never have to listen,
to anyone about anything
Cause it's all been done, and it's all been said
we're the coolest kids
And we take what we can get _____x Brand New
hand me the world on a silver platter
and what good would it be
with no one to share with no one
who truely cares for me_____x Alicia Keys
whenever i'm not around, and you feelin down `
let the thought of me be the reason you smile ;*
What you give is what you get
And you gave absolutely nothing to me
We seek the comfort of another,
someone to shape and share the life we choose,
someone to help us through the never ending
attempt to understand each other,
and in the end,
someone to comfort us along the way_____x Lois and Clark
There's different kinds of love, darling.
Some people you love no matter what,
and others you love if the situation is right.
To me, the best kind of love
is the "no matter what" kind. ______x Inventing the Abbotts
So now you've got it all figured out
And you know you've found someone that cares
And if you ever need somebody to help you out
Well you know I will always be there______x Firehouse
She'd give anything & everything to fall in love,
just this one time.
She'd like to find what she's been dreaming of.
She could find someone to hold her
but that wouldn't be enough,
because she'd give anything to fall in love
none of those other things make a difference,
love is the strongest thing in the world,
ya know, nothing can touch it,
nothing comes close, if we love each other,
we’re safe from it all,
love is the biggest thing there is______x snow falling on cedars
If i would have known that the first time i saw you
would be the last time..
I would have stopped to memorize your face,
the way you moved...everything about you'____x Friends
i need you, and you don’t know how hard that is
for me to accept, because i dont need anyone,
but its a whole lot easier than trying to imagine my life
without you_____x Boys and Girls
i dont know when im with you,
i just, i never know whats going to happen next,
its weird, because my life is so planned out,
its like you dont care what people think,
and when im with you,
i dont care what people think_____x Crazy/Beautiful
Are you looking for an answer?
-because I could really use [..a friend..] tonight.
'Who are YOU?' said the Caterpillar.
This was not an encouraging opening for a conversation. Alice replied, rather shyly, `I--I hardly know, sir, just at present-- at least I know who I WAS when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.'____x Alice In Wonderland
I had no illusions about love...
It came, it went, it left casualties or it didn't
it was only when i began to feel actual physical pain
every time you left the room
that it finally dawned on me,
i was in love! _____x Dangerous Liaisons
she dreams a champagne dream,
strawberry suprise
pink linen and white paper
lavender and cream
fields of butterflies
reality escapes her..
And I meant every word I said
When I said that I love you I meant
That I love you forever______x Reo Speedwagon
you said my heart sounded like a payphone in the rain
distorted, distant, scrambled, and desperate.
Saturday, March 27, 2004
currently playing - burn -- Usher
currently eating/drinking - coffee
currently wearing - nike hoodie...polar bear pj pants...still lol
current mood - c0nfused
currently thinking - im reallie fucking c0ld
current quote/lyric - Who the fuck are you to say what I can or cannot do? You talk shit about me constantly with your weak judgmental crew, spread lies about me, cry about me like its your God given task. If you spent more time thinking about me, I'd have your head right up my ass - dedicated
i got bored so im updating this again lol..some of them are repeats...old favorites <3
the saddest thing in life is wasted talent
you can have all the talent in the world,
but if you dont do the right thing nothing happens,
but when you do right good things happen____<3 A Bronx Tale
you and me have a better time
than most can dream,
we have it better than the best._____<3 Dave Matthews
And I hadn't set aside the fact
that you were broken-hearted.
Hell knows where your heart would be today.
Maybe with me._____<3 Alkaline Trio
In seventh grade...
you are what other people say you are.
When it comes down to it,
you don't remember the people
you tried to impress._____<3 The Wonder Years
Listen....
here's the pleasant part:
you and I, we fell apart._____<3 The Juliana Theory
You know that place between sleep and wake,
where you still remember dreaming?
That's where I'll wait for you.
That's where I'll always love you.______<3 Tinkerbell
You take my breath away,
With all the things you say,
You take my breath away,
And then you leave me standing all alone______<3 Not by Choice
Whereever you go and whoever you're with
you'll always have a piece of my hear_____<3 Dawson's Creek
He said "We can work through this"
As i turned to walk out the door
Yeah, like i'd believe him
He's used that line before
I feel like a big faker,
because I’ve been putting my life back together
and nobody knows______<3 The Perks of Being a Wallflower
I know he's not perfect!
But he's the one person
that will shown up on my birthday
and say I'm glad you were born!_____<3 28 Days
i want to know
if theres a reason for things,
i used to be certain
but im not so sure anymore_____<3 Simon Birch
I’ll move on but you’re going to
have to go through the rest of
your life knowing you turned
your back on love_____<3 Cruel Intentions
In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again.
Some, you wonder what happenend to them.
There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you.
And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again.
But you do. _____<3 The Wonder Years
Love is such a strong word
and if you are going to use it,
make sure u know what it means,
because it hurts to hear it
and know that you don’t mean it_____<3 Alone and Restless
standing on the edge of morning, 'scent
of sex and new found glory. playing as
she's pulling back her hair, ' she drives
away. she's feeling worthlesS, used
again but nothing's different. she'd stay
the night, but knows he doesn't care...'
the reason her life didn't turn out
more like a movie. shes trying to
forget it all.' i dont believe in any-
thing, but i believe in you. i never
tusted anyone, 'but somehow i
trust you. _____<3 Midtown
There are so many things I want to say to you,
but time's caught me up and now I'll never say them
except that I've loved you
from the moment I saw you and every moment since._____<3 Robin Hood
If you've never had a broken heart,
then you are either very lucky or very lonely._____<3 Dawson's Creek
sometimes we walk, sometimes we run away,
but I know no matter how fast we are running
somehow we keep up with each other._____<3 Dave Matthews
theres only us, theres only this.
forget regret or life is yours to miss.
no other road, no other way,
no other day but today.
what if i said you never mattered?
that i never lost a moment of sleep.
what if i crushed all of your dreams
and broke all the promises you swore
to keep? tell me how your life would
be if i did to you what you did to me.
The only kiss we got here
is a goodbye kiss.
which as kisses go,
are not my favorite______<3 View From the Top
The greatest assest a person can have
is having someone believe in you_____<3 View From the Top
you don't remember me but i remember you. `i lie
awake and try so hard not to think of you. but
who can decide what they dream? `and dream i
do...' i believe in you. i'll give up everything just to
find you. i have to be with you to live, to breathe.
you're taking over me._____<3 Evanescence
you see, in my life..
i've never found what i couldn't resist
what i couldnt turn down
i could walk away from anyone i ever knew
Buh until i met this incredible person..
it was you..
young melanie: whatchu wanna marry me for anyhow?
young jake: so i can kiss u anytime i want____<3 sweet home alabama
you’re my heart,
and you know
i can’t live without my heart____<3 Blow
currently playing - tainted love -- marilyn manson's versi0n
currently eating/drinking - cough drop
currently wearing - nike hoodie...polar bear pj pants lol
current mood - blah
currently thinking - SO MUCH FUCKING DRAMA
current quote/lyric - te amo demasiado <3
death may bring endings.
but it's home to a thousand lonely faces.
i felt i was on fire with the things i could have told you
i guess i just assumed that you eventually would ask
and i wouldn't have to bring up my so badly broken heart
and all those months i just wanted to sleep
though spring, it did come slowly, i guess it did its part
and maybe it's not worrying about
what's down the road, or where you will end up,
but enjoying where you are right now _____<3 sex and the city
So you end up watching chances fade
..and wondering what`s real.
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
and he will make the face of heaven so beautiful,
that all the world will be in love with night._____<3 shakespeare
and we have this down, unlike everybody.
i'll spend a million nights just like tonight you know,
i screamed your name at the sky, until I lost my voice.
well, I'd give my life for you.
can i still see my future in your eyes
or can i picture myself dead in your embrace?
fuck off...
like you're the only person that has ever cried
or been broken by love?
Come on,
without you I'll never feel the love inside of me.
Come on,
you know that we belong.
i guess things never turn out exactly the way you planned.
I remember how it was growing up
among people and places I loved.
Most of all, I remember how it was to leave._____<3 The Wonder Years
nothing lasts forever,
and we both know hearts can change,
and its hard to hold a candle
in the cold November rain.______<3 Guns N' Roses
Real loss is only possible
when you love something
more than you love yourself.______<3 Good Will Hunting
Tell him that you love him.
You've got nothing to lose,
and you'll always regret it if you don't.______<3 Love Actually
so kiss me hard
'cause this will be the last time that I let you.
You will be back someday
and this awkward kiss
that tells of other people's lips
will be of service to keeping you away.
So let's do our best to beat the misery
that comes with being young and fucked up
You're not perfect sport,
and let me save you the suspense,
this girl you've met she's not perfect either.
But the question is.....
whether or not you're perfect for each other.____<3 Good Will Hunting
The only thing about romance
is that people only get together
right at the very end._____<3 Love Actually
Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.
_____<3 Meet Joe Black
Monday, March 22, 2004
There's a height beyond skyscrapers,
There's a distance beyond the freeway,
More than pictures in a magazine,
More than tragedy in a rock and roll song.
It's more than actions you know are safe to make.
It's more than money could ever buy.
I'm twisted cause one side of me
tellin' me that I need to move on
on the other side I wanna break down and cry // Usher
I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did..
I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did...
I didn't mean to fall in love but i did...
The stars are tangled in the clouds,
can't you hear me,
I'm screaming so loud.
And she wants to be a model
she wants to hear she's beautiful
she's beautiful
i want to save you
i want to save you
i need you to
save me too
i want to save you // Something Corporate
All this time,there's a hole in my ceiling where dreams escape,
right above my head.
I'll take a holiday, i'm sick of feeling this way.
So just cut off the lights awhile, and kiss me like you wanted to.
And then I'll sing in style, like a black heart valentine pill.
I need it but just keep it, I have slept it off,
and I've been awake for too long.. // Northstar
We both want the world,
But we both know that this gets old,
If i could open up my chest,
Then maybe i could find a way,
To give you just a little piece of my heart
if the sky were to suddenly open up,
there would be no law, there would be no rule.
There would only be you and your memories. // Donnie Darko
come on, come on, I need to see you tonight
under the stars and nights
I could hold you, hold you tight
I wont do anything
So come on, come on, i need to see you tonight
Under the stars and lights
For better love is hard to find
I'd love to put you out of my mind
And i dont care what you do
But i get sooo upset
When you dont call
Come on come on come on
I need to see you tonight
Saturday, March 13, 2004
[x] Part 1-- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality – African american
Your hair – brownish black
Your fears – being alone
Your perfect room – Kerrie’s lol
What you practically do in a day – uhh… wake up, school, cut half my classes, go home, phone, comp, shower, bed
[x] Part 2-- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse – fuck, bitch, cunt
Phrases you overuse – whatever you faggot, what the frigg, (thnx jaimie lol) fuck you
Your first thought when you wake up – I didn’t do any homework
Your greatest accomplishment – throwing Jaimie’s party
Something you want to do – fall in love
[x] Part 3 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke - pepsi
McDonald's or Burger Kings – Mcdonald’s
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera - both
Chocolate or vanilla - vanilla
Adidas or Nike - adidas
Black or white - black
Bills or Coins - bills
Burgers or hot dogs – cheese burgers
Egypt or France - France.
Rock or rap - rock.
[x] Part 4 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke - not anymore
Cuss - yeah
Sing well – I guess so
Sing in the shower - yeah.
Talk to yourself a lot – haha sometimes.
Believe in yourself - nope not at all
Like taking these long ass surveys? - I don’t reallie care
Play an instrument - nope
Want to go to college? - yes.
Want to get married? - yes.
Want to have children? - yes.
Think you're a health freak? - no..
Get along with your parents – sometimes, its mostly my fault
Get along with your siblings? – HELL NO
Think you're popular – I know I’m not
[x] Part 5 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state - nope.
Drank alchohol - no.
Smoke - no.
Got high - no.
Done any drugs - no.
Eaten an entire box of Oreos - nope.
Been on stage - no.
Gone skinny dipping – haha fat girls don’t skinnie dip
Been dumped – need a guy to get dumped
Dyed your hair - no.
Stolen anything – not in the past month.....
[x] Part 6 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest - hm..out of the group, me, Ashley, Merri, and Chelsea
Loudest – me or Ashley lol
Most shy – Jaimie
Blondest - Allie
Smartest - Merri
Kindest – Cori and Merri
Best personality – all of them..they all got different personalites which makes them great <3
Most talented – lol they all have crazee little talents
Best singer – Merri lol
Most ghetto – haha Ashley or Kelsey
Drama Queen ((or King)) - Kelsey.
Pain in the ass - Jessica
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style)) – Jessica lol
Funniest – all of them are funnie
Best person for advice - Britt
Dependable – Jaimie
Trustworthy – Jaimie .
Druggie – none (haha wow am I lying)
Most likely to end up in jail – Ashley or Kelsey
Person you've known the longest - Ashley
[x] Part 7 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream – About Jaimie’s party
Last nightmare – About all the things that could have went
wrong with Jaimie’s party.
Car ride – with dad, Chelsea, Heather, Allie, and Cori,..
Last time you cried – wow its been awhile…
Last movie seen – Dirty Dancing : Havana Nights baby!
Last movie rented – haven’t rented one but I borrowed Save the Last Dance
from Heather
Last book read- Hard Love
Last word said - okay
Last curse word said - fuck
Last time you laugh – last night @ Kerrie’s
Last phone call – umm I think it was from Jaimie last night
asking what time she should come
Last CD played – a mix
Last song you listened to – Eminem – My Band
Last annoyance – My dad
Last IM – I’m on away
Last weird encounter – I don’t know
Last person you hugged – no one lol
Last person you yelled at – lol my team for Cranium at Kerrie’s
Last time you wore a skirt – good lord lol, last year for the Sixth Flags trip
Last time you've been evil – Thursday lol
Sarcastic? – Thursday lol
Last time you fought with your parents – Thursday ( I wasn’t home Friday)
Last time you wished upon a star – I don’t wish on stars
Played Truth or Dare – New years at Chelsea’s
Spent quality time alone – Friday night when I got home from Kerrie’s..
[x] Part 8 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM – no I’m on away
Do you feel lonely - No
Ever TP'd someone's house – ahaha yehhh
How about egging someone's house – lolol yep!
Do you not like dislike not like me? – gah to earlie to figure out that sentence
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? - <3 Eminem
Yo Momma – no…yo Momma
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? – haha no
What do you think of George Bush? – I don’t reallie care about him
Any secret fetishes? Haha ask Chelsea
Do you like to wear chains? - O_o cant say I do
How many languages do you speak? – two …counting English lol
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! - nope.
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you XP)) – yeh sorta lol
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
currently playing - At Last - Etta James
currently eating/drinking - nothing
currently wearing - white jacket...striped pj pants
current mood - tired
currently thinking - so SICK of drama
current quote/lyric - you're SO last summer.
You're my front page story
Wanna tell the world
I'm in love with you, boy
So much for all the promises
you've made, it served you well
and now their gone and they're wasted on me.
So much for your enduring sense of charm,
it served you well
and now you're gone and it's wasted on me.
Isn't life so perfect?
It has to be,
it has to make up for all the hard things.
damn right I am still pissed..
next time I see your face
we will see who has the upper hand
kiss my fist. Taste the floor.
Tired of your games. fuck off goodbye.
Don't regret what you said.
Forget about the take backs
it was well worth it. I give my love to the end.
I finally figured out...
It's time to cuddle up with no one
and miss you
Fuckin' every now and then I fall apart
and I need you now tonight.
I fuckin' need you more than ever.
I can't say I blame you
But I wish that I could
I'm sick of every song
about you
I don't miss you just yet
I don't think I ever will...
Why would I miss an inconsiderate bastard?
All I have to say is... I'm sorry I hate you.
I don't steal and I don't lie
But I can feel and I can cry
A fact I bet you never knew
But to cry in front of you
That's the worst thing I could do.
If you find somebody you can love,
you can't let that get away.
should've said something but ive said it enough by the way
my words were faded rather waste some time with you.
What does it take to get this through to you,
Subject yourself to things that you deserve,
Just stop me if you've heard enough,
Of what you should have said and done.
You said there would not be
any reason to fear this world.
But you're the reason,
you're the reason I feel broken,
and branded, and burning with doubt.
me
friends
credits